It's over two months now and I am dismayed to find the pain and sense of loss only get worse. I miss you so very much and the passing of time does nothing. The longer you are gone the more I miss you. How does life carry on without you here to keep us all in check. Dad misses you terribly Mum and the pain of his loss is evident, even though he tries his best not to show it. You were such a wonderful Mother and Wife that we are left with an expanse of nothingness in our lives. Even though I know you cannot read these words and are blissfully unaware of our suffering, it helps to write down how I feel and I truely thank God that you are now in his presence and free from all the pain and suffering this life heaped upon you. I will love you eternally and will be forever grateful that I was blessed to have you as my Mother. I just wish with all my heart that you were here now with words of comfort and love to ease this ache in my heart that never goes away.